Granny Wolf

07:29 pm: The trade of Jacks: on pain diminish/ Useless Attacks: fight unfinished
I'm in a high absorption phase right now. Lots of new books, lots of new information, and although the cracks are showing the sky ain't fallin' yet. The ripples are spreading out from the present Palestinian situation, but I sincerely doubt that anything "big" (?) will happen before the Israeli elections. Israel has been unsuprisingly unanimous about blocking funds (at the same time revealing the extent of the Fatah party's looting... which clearly indicates that most of the aid money to Palestinians has been lining the pockets of socialist beaurocrats anyway...) and the heated international debate continues. It's a dry heat though. There's something profoundly irrelevant about the question to me, but that's not what I want to talk about today. I'm working on a bio piece on Yasser Arafat as well, but that is also not what I want to talk about today.

Ritual work has been heavy for the last two weeks and between that and school, things like sleep and internet are pretty much out of the question. I find the way that this affects my general work to be fascinating. I started doing heavy (daily investments of great amounts of time rather than daily investments of small amounts of time) ritual/yoga about a year and a half ago when I was out of work. I figured that with school or a job I wouldn't have time, but the more time I pour into these things, the less time it takes me to read/understand and write/articulate my research. I'd like to make a point of saying this, because lately I've been speaking to people who tell me that they do not have the time to invest in the kind of serious magick/mystic work that I do (which includes study as well as ritual). This notion is ridiculous. I keep up a full time schedule of classes, writing and researching my thesis, and a very active social life without too much difficulty. In fact, the harder I work on my spiritual pursuits, the easier everything else becomes. If this is not the case for you, allow me to suggest that you are pursuing the wrong spirit. When performed correctly, this work increases one's abilities on all other fronts. In purely psychological terms, if you completely reject the supernatural I can still argue that these practices increase memory, concentration, deductive abilities (assuming you're using magick to DO stuff) and general perserverence and self-determination. In that particular case (the purely psychological one) I would also make the argument that you're kind of a tard, but that's neither here nor there. The point is that time is like money. It takes it to make it. If you invest your time wisely, you gain a whole lot back on interest when you cash it in, and that way you have enough for mundane work, magickal work, and all the fun that you can handle (I personally leave the handling of my "fun" to others... but that's the fun of it). Am I trying to say that the way I invest my time is BETTER than others? Yes I am.

I suspect my LJ will be pretty quiet for the next little while as the various forces in my life converge significantly in the next couple of weeks. There's a lot that I want to say, but I think I'm going to wait until this transition period is over to try and articulate it. There is one issue that I need to briefly spout about, however...

The tainted blood case is going to court in Canada right now. As some of you know, the Candian government mistakenly infected a number of patients with HIV when they failed to properly screen donated blood. The defense is trying to argue that there is insufficient evidence for the case to go ahead. I am unclear as to how this is possible to prove, as the people who recieved the blood from that batch, people who did not previously have HIV, ALL contracted the virus after recieving transfusions. I have somewhat of a personal stake in this case, and so I watch it intently. Maybe it's just because of that personal connection, but I become positively apoplectic with rage every time another little nugget of bullshit falls from that asshole of a defense lawyer. Okay, DEFINATLY it's because of the personal connection. Still... I find injustice in the form of brutality and agression so much easier to psychologically handle in comparison to this kind of quiet, beaurocratic ineptitude. Maybe it's because we all accept that there are terrible sadistic fucks in the world... and that they want to hurt us. When you find out that you've been given HIV by the hospital you went to for care, that's a reality that's much harder to accept.

And on that pleasent note, I'm off to make time. Ooo baby. The time that I make...